quite alot of things have happened since i last blogged, but i don't really feel like typing them down cause it's too tiring.
but here's sth significant i did!

i went on the singapore flyer as part of the team singapore outing.
well, what i can say is i'm glad i managed to ride it for free!
i think i would have been quite disappointed if i had paid 30 bucks for that half an hour long ride which wasn't very interesting.
after looking at the view from the top few floors of Taiwan 101, the singapore flyer doesn't seem like a big deal anymore. ha.
might post some pictures up the next time.



Jiaolian's leaving early tmr morn,
and john's leaving next week.
2 of the few coaches whom i have to thank for everything that i have achieved with regards to swimming thus far (and maybe in the future)
it will be sad to see them go ): but as every chapter comes to a close, a new one begins.
and as a door shuts, many more will be opened.
the question is, which one will i choose to go through?

this is especially important to me as their leaving comes at a time when i'm just floating along (pun unintended) unsure of where i want to head/what i want to achieve in terms of swimming and it feels so different not to have any goals.

I watched Stephanie Rice's amazing 200IM and 400IM world record swims and a part of me yearned for the pool, for competing seriously again. Obviously, i'll never know what it's like to be a world record holder, but i realised that i sorely miss the feeling of touching the wall and knowing you've done a great pb, and i would dearly like to have that back.

A part of me wonders whether this is the end of the road for me, whether i've reached my maximum and will never breach this stagnation barrier, or whether i'll even be able to prevent my times from spiralling downwards any further. but i know that hard work and changes in terms of training will definitely be beneficial in helping to overcome this.

Not to mention, i've had a really really long rest mentally, since i haven't been subjected to training stress for a really long time and i think my motivation levels have picked up sufficiently enough for me to give it another shot, just like when i first joined COE and was all raring to go. I've learnt that your mental state really affects the outcome of your training, because once you become all jaded about training and start to dread it instead of embracing hard sessions as a challenge, that's where it'll all start to go downhill.

But then again, i wonder whether i'll be able to commit to training so many times again, especially with this being my A lvl year and with there being so many things that i want to do.

I'll have to think about this long and hard before making my decision, because it's likely that what i decide now will affect the path my swimming career takes in the future.

I just hope that whatever decision i make won't be one that i'll come to regret.


Late last night I made my plans
It was the only thing I felt I could do
Said goodbye to my best friend
Sometimes there's no one left to tell you the truth
-Less Than Jake